Aside from what I’m paid for, I don’t think I’ve done anything useful today. Actually, maybe that’s not true. I cleaned the cat litter. I groomed the cat. But I should want to wash the dishes more. And should be more willing to clean up my living space, especially seeing as I’m the only one responsible for it.
Instead, I played Final Fantasy VII. It’s a replay, and I’m still in the beginning stages of the game. The exposition just happened, and (don’t read the next part if you haven’t played and want to play) Sephiroth is real upset that he was a manufactured super being who was supposed to serve the needs of some corporation and lead them to some Promised Land. Of course, after reading about the history of Cetra, who he thinks of as his people, he feels like most of humanity are betrayals who took their land. Then he goes off to massacre an entire town, and see his mother Jenova, who I assume is a representation of Mother Earth. In his mind, he’s saving the Earth from humanity. According to poor Cloud, Sephiroth was someone he looked up to, but then Sephiroth killed his family and entire town.
If Sephiroth were a Pokemon, he’d undoubtedly be Mew Two. Maybe Cloud’s just silly little Pikachu. Both of these stories have to do with humanity kind of enslaving the Earth. Imagine if the Native Americans were representatives of nature, and they felt the way Sephiroth and Mew Two did, and then collectively were just really powerful and vindictive. It would be a whole different face of America. Or like, all the ghosts from the Holocaust came to curse the descendants of the Germans and all the Neo Nazis. I really shouldn’t be applying fiction to reality like this. Most people do it the other way around.
In reality, nature sometimes gets her revenge, too. Look at all the times that wild animals have hunted humans. It’s kind of par for the course. My Eugene is domesticated, but if I were to randomly just die, I’m sure he’d have no problem eating my corpse if the food ran out, and the stink wasn’t enough to get the neighbors to call the police and break down the door. Returning to nature really just means succumbing to bacteria and becoming maggot food.
There was also this anime I watched years ago, named Texhnolyze, which was a dystopia where humans were at war with themselves for a really long time, and who have amputated limbs, got mechanical ones instead. I think they forgot why they were fighting, and they didn’t remember their humanity. The main character carried around a vile that was supposed to be his mother’s blood, and he wanted to use that to resurrect her, only to find that the DNA was no longer complete enough to create her again, because it degenerated before he got to the doctors and the lab. But he saw her again when he himself degenerated.
Final Fantasy VII and Texhnolyze both take the idea of the mother, and the Mother Earth, kind of far, in that mothers are supposed to be everything worth fighting for, and the ultimate idea of purity and innocence. It’s even sort of Oedipal. Actually, Neon Genesis Evangelion also does that, with the way that Rei was actually a clone of Shinji’s mother, and his attraction to her. (Everyone forgets that fifteen-year-old boys are attracted to anything female that moves.) In Shinji’s father’s design and making of the giant semi-organic possibly alien robots, to fight against actual aliens “Angels”, was his expression of grief at how his wife died. His cloning her is a way to get her back, but there’s an age difference between him and Rei. It’s unclear whether Rei has the memories of her originator. There are many papers and analyses written for Evangelion. Beneath the madness is a philosophy.
Beneath my daily life seeking who knows what, there is only darkness, warmth, and sleep.